-For how long have you been frozen? he asked me. I looked at him with a questioning look. -Frozen? I said. -Yes, frozen, he said. I looked at the ground and there I could see myself inside glass. The water had wrapped me up and slowly turned into ice. My face was pale with blue lips and my eyes were wide open with an empty stare at nothing. -Look at me. His voice came from a tunnel far away or was he standing right in front of me whispering inside a box? I looked at him again. -For how long? he said. I tried to break the ice. I wanted her out of there. Why did I see myself under ice being pale and blue as if I had no life in me? I started jumping, kicking my heels but nothing helped.

He took my hand and I got tears in my eyes. We stood there looking at me inside ice and a film started as if it was a screen we were watching. I closed my eyes. I knew what we would see. - I have to watch this to understand it all, he said. When you looked at me I first thought you were blind. Your eyes were on me but they saw nothing, as if I was not there. -You are not there, I said with my eyes closed. -I see, he said and grabbed my arms gently and shook me a bit. I opened my eyes and looked at him.

I am sure most women would think of him as a beauty, someone they would love to get to know better. They would comment on his eyes and his hair and mouth, his broad shoulders and sweet smile but I could not see it or I could but it didn't mean anything to me. I didn't see a future in him like other women would. I didn't want to do things with him or get to know him. He was just another face to me and I had no idea why he was there. I never did really. There were no feelings around him but I could feel emptiness and a broken dream somewhere, something from a long time ago that never happened and now it had turned into nothing.

-You seem a bit brainwashed as if someone has wiped men out of your life. You have been in a life where men never made a difference or you thought they all hated you and you are a very kind person. You don't want to be in the way even if it costs you your life. SO now all I am is: You just know I am a man, something different from you but it doesn't mean anything to you. And you know I will find myself a girlfriend one day and it won't be you. How can it be? I am not here and you don't feel anything anymore. For how long will you go on like this?

-Forever I guess, I said with a cold voice. I stared at him. I tried to feel something. I should feel something but I didn’t. I turned my back to him and started walking. -It's too late a voice in me spoke. You are already under the ice. Until you can do better this is the way it goes. -I’ll be here tomorrow, he shouted behind me. -Please come back. I want to ask you about something.